One year ago today

It was one year ago today that I found out I was pregnant.  There were a lot of emotions that went on that day and if I'd only read the pregnancy test that I took correctly we could have saved a heck of alot of tears.  So, let me give you a quick walk down memory lane on this day a year ago...We had been in Starkville for the game that weekend and decided to stay through Monday with these sweet friends.  I just happened to throw a test in my bag (no box) just in case I might want to take one before I went in for my blood test on Tuesday.  Well, sure enough on Monday morning I couldn't resist...I took it.  I was looking for a plus sign to show up in one of the windows because I thought that was the kind of test I bought.  Anyway, only two lines showed up...one in each window.  I was devastated and in somewhat disbelief.  Let's just say it was a looooong ride back home.  After I had made the dreaded and sobbing phone call to my mom to tell her the disappointing news...and after I told her and Larkin that all I was going to be doing the next day was drinking diet coke and making an appointment to get my hair highlighted (two of my favorite things that I hadn't done in forever because of ivf), I went to get ready for bed and unpack my things.  As I went to put something under the sink, I noticed the pregnancy test box mainly because the test on the outside of the box looked just like the one I had taken that morning. I thought to myself, "surely they wouldn't put a negative test on the outside of the box." I just kept thinking, "this can't be...this can't be" so I pulled out the pamphlet and discovered that a line in each window on this specific test means that you're going to have a baby!!!  I ran in the den and scared Larkin half to death. I said, "you're not going to believe this, but I think I read the test wrong this morning...it's positive."  He just looked at me and said, "what?...go take another one."  Sure enough it read the same and we hugged and hugged and cried and got down on our knees by the side of our bed and thanked the Lord a million times over . It's a moment I will never forget and I can't believe it's been one year since all of that happened.  I went to the doctor the next day and sure enough it was "official." =)

Alot has gone on since last September 7th.  Little did we know that on September 29th we would find out that I was pregnant with two babies.  Two babies that turned out to be identical...that share the same DNA.  That just doesn't happen all the time.  The Lord still blows our minds on that one!  Sally Kate and Simmons have filled our hearts with some of the greatest joy we've ever known and being their momma is one of my greatest privileges.  I look forward to all of our days ahead filled with laughter, hugs and kisses, bedtime prayers, butterfly days, and lots of singing and dancing.  I smile just thinking about it.  In the same breath, though, I must say that being their momma is one of the most challenging things I've ever done.  I realize more and more everyday that I can't do this on my own.  I physically do not have enough strength and stamina to be the kind of momma I want to be without lots of help from the Lord. There are lots of days that I think "I" can do it and those are the days that I am most exhausted--I've had my fair share of them and have learned that the hard way.   I am claiming Phil. 4:13...that I really can do all things through Him who gives me strength.  He has called me to be a momma to two and He will give me exactly what I need to do it if only I will let Him...

Now, if and when I ever take a pregnancy test again...I think I'll be paying a little more attention to the signs on the box!